A long time ago, i wish i get married, a beautiful bride on a wonderful day…I want it so much than one of my best job was to think about it, everytime, everywhere…The organisation, my dresses, the colors of my dresses, my husband, my guests (i was thinking i will be in a big trouble as i know a lot of people…), the food (A lot of food coming from everywhere especially from my country…i use to remember some wedding with one single dish, very alone in that big plate…oh my gosh), the music (as i love to dance like my parents, i was thinking that the DJ need to be very very good…in many style), the place (i didn’t want to have a classical wedding…). I use to think i will cry a lot during that day…because we will be surrounded by people who love us…I use to say ‘I want our guests as happy as us, celebrating our love and wish us ‘happiness, peace, a lot of children…’and bla bla bla. I often think about all these stuffs… that i scared the man in my life…But that was not my problem as i wanted that day to be: P.E.R.F.E.C.T! I use to say ‘Baby, don’t u think that color will be perfect?’, ‘Baby i’m doing fastly my guest list and guess what, i almost reach 300 guests…just like that…’, ‘Baby, i think we should make our wedding during 2 or 3 days’, ‘Baby, my mom turn on my nerves, she says that, if she come some people must stay home…some people on my dad part…’, ‘Baby, i don’t see ur involvement here, do u really want to marry me?’, ‘Baby do u think it’s possible to have Beyoncé?’… Baby, baby, baby…poor man who haven’t yet ‘propose’…I was waiting for that so much that i became another woman…not a kind one… As i say, that was a long time ago, i was a dreamy little girl (U’re right, i’m still little )… But now, it’s a bit different.
Now, i look around me, i look at people, deeply…i look at their lives, their lies, their sadness, their sorrow. I also look at their joy, their happiness, their success. I start with the mean part, it’s not innocent…I listen too them…and i learn…Life is not perfect, even when it’s look like…It’s very important to choose a person sharing the same view of life, someone who respect u…As life is not so easy…i think it’s a good way to start…All that explain why now, i’m a bit scared about commitment…because no matter what, i N.E.E.D. to be happy!